The Diary of Itishree Agrawal

Zeal to reach the Zenith of life by touching the Nadir.

Memoirs is Mine !!!!!!!!!

One fine morning I found myself inside a wardrobe. A wardrobe full of colorful paintings, in one corner of the wardrobe there is a dilemma painting, while on the other side painting named soul curry was residing. I was waiting to find out a painting based on colorful kites but I found a painting of a girls dancing. Let the whole wardrobe be full of painting…….Life would be more colorful.

Everyday…..Everywhere….

The reflection of the street light during the night while the cacophony of the chirping birds during the day time mesmerizes the whole week after week. ….

The colorful T-shirt wants to wrap me while the blue and white blanket wants me to hide inside it….

The fragrance of the perfume and the dry flowers of the flower vase rejuvenate my mind and soul to feel and enjoy the moments of life….

The Rhythm of the heart beat and the crazy feelings of happiness make me to behave like a dumbo….

The aroma of the lavender colored soaps and the beauty of the painting having orange colorful leaves on trees create a sensational feeling inside me…..

The softness of the two hugging bears and the small size bed covered with colorful bed sheet dipped me into an enchanting kind of feeling.

The taste of the morning sweet tea and the spicy taste of the evening poori’s enough to make and feel jealous to the paper colorful fatty champi hanging inside the wardrobe…..

The dirt inside the laptop and the liquid inside the colin bottle irritates me create an allergic kind of feeling…..

The cuteness of the bear wearing pink kappa T-shirt and the tenderness of the person holding sandwiches in the photos make me to “stand-still”….

The marbles of the taj-mahal and the baby elephant inside a big elephant brings a caring kind of feeling…..

The Black Bossini and the white royal heritage inside the wardrobe makes each moment lavishly….

Holding lens of the camera, focusing on the memories, switching on the light, omitting the lines of afraidness makes me to feel secure inside the wardrobe…..

One fine evening holding an oil canvas having black door inside the taj, tears inside my eyes , holding red diaries carrying pebbles on my hand vanish all my future dream inside the wardrobe……

Next day when I open my eyes , situation switch off the light, I found myself inside a different wardrobe where there is only one painting hanging inside the door of it…..The painting says “Life is beautiful” …then what if it is written in black marker in a black board .

Memoirs is Mine!!!!!!!!!!!

“Hungry lion inside a cage”

Standing alone inside a cage, where there is no door to move on and when I look up at the sky , I found “Sky is the limit” and I have no options to choose rather than going inside a cage.

Sometimes Just like others, even I want to run like a jaguar in an open jungle but situation wants me to be like a frog inside a well which is always dark. Since childhood I was just like a frog inside a well who knows nothing about the outside world but knows everything inside a well. I was the leader among other frog of that well. One day I got a chance to come out from the well and when I stand and open my eyes, I saw so many are there in the Cat family. I tried to compete with them. During the race so many times I fell down, I was all alone. So many are there to pull me back to go inside the same well where I came from but some how I succeeded while competing with the Cat family. I was able to create a place for me in the CAT family. But still I want to fly like a bird.

I learned to identify the characteristic of the person who are there in the cat family. Each and everyone have their own stripes. Lion, Tiger, Leopard, Jaguar, Cheetahs, ordinary cats etc…. situations want me to be a king just like a lion in the cat family but that time I played as an ordinary cat. Situation wants me to stand in front of a lion, the king the winner of the cat family, I was able to see , how the winner enjoy the shades of the beautiful colors of their life while I was struggling to come out from the shades of black and white. Everything seems to be grey.

Whenever I knock the door to enjoy a cup of milk by closing my eyes, situation close the door. I was afraid to fight with the wolf and jackals who stand in front of me as a social animal. God knows the name of their family. Standing alone in an open dark jungle, I tried to go back into the same well because I was afraid of darkness In an open jungle.

One day while going back, coincidentally I met with a tiger. I thought to run away but he stands in front of me and shows me a direction where to go, How to go……? Within a short frame of time, I have seen him in a different way. Sometimes he stands in front of me as an ordinary cat with white and grey stripes. Sometimes his thoughts run like a jaguar and he used to share with me. Sometimes he led as a leader just like a lion in a jungle and wants me to follow him. He speaks about cat family in an event? How could a person change his stripes so frequently and manage to stand in front of an ordinary cat?

Rather looking back, I started following him. I felt proud to be in the cat family of an open jungle. I started enjoying the open environment. I got a chance to change my stripes frequently. I got recognition, appreciation and rewards for my activities. But……

One fine morning, I visited the zoo. I was just Imagining the situation of a hungry lion in a zoo .That time I got a call and situation again put me inside a cage just like a lion in a zoo. Here I know when to go….but i don’t know how to go inside a cage?

Itishree…..

Move On

Move On!!! It’s quite easy to say Move on, when things were in still motion. It’s being a long time that I have ever move along with my thoughts. But the memories give me a reason to move when there is numbness in my thoughts.

It’s quite difficult to convince someone. Though it’s not easy to live alone in this world but each and every one is having their own destiny and the destiny controls by their own fate. Stubbornness is good but sometimes it leaves a scar in a relationship and that scar mark is enough to spoil the beautiful relationship. Relationship begins with a trust and if trust is there then there is no end of relationship. If end is there, then that end will be for a new beginning. New beginning does not end the old relationship of soul mates. It keeps on adding new responsibilities for their soul mates.

New beginning brings new hopes into a relationship. New hope brings respect for the life partners. I always believe in giving something to a relationship. Though the philosophy is difficult to understand but sometimes the universal truth itself says “I am wrong”. It is the problem of the individual not to believe the most powerful human values truth.

I tried to convince my heart to express my feeling but it says, go and fulfill your responsibilities “I am always there with you”. Destiny erased my dream with an eraser. I tried to close my eyes again and will see a beautiful dream again but the two eyelashes do not hug each other, may be they were also surrounded by situation.
Every day I saw a dream with my open eyes. Though I have no right to saw a day dream, but today I would like to share my dream. Capture each and every moment of today, so that I would like to see when situation will be in my favor. Skills help to build a foundation to a new relationship. When time and opportunity is there, don’t waste it by regretting about the situation. Today situation demand to depart from each other, one day same situation allow to stand and will say “Life is Beautiful”

Never cry and allow situation to control. Let you control the situation. You and I always there in each and every modes of life. Cheer up and have a nice time.
My life is just like a painting, my real and practical world is just like painting in black and white, and while my imaginative world is just painting in colorful one and most of the time I believe in imaginative world. We have to decide whether we would like to be a part of black and white or colorful painting.

We are free to fly like a bird and choose our own option. Life is Beautiful

Move on!!!